You wanna know what love is?
Do you trust me? When you look in my eyes, do you feel anything? When I say something, do you listen? When I mess up, do you forgive me? When I'm upset, do you comfort me? When you're upset, do you smile for me? When you're angry at me, does it fade away quickly? When I'm hurt, do you cry?
I trust you. When I look in your eyes, I know this is real. When you say something, I listen not with just my ears, but also with my heart. When you mess up, I'll always forgive you. When you're upset, all I do is try to cheer you up. When I'm upset, I smile for you and never take it out on you. When I'm angry at you, it fades away instantly when you simply smile. When you're hurt, I cry for your pain because I share it with you.

I'm so depressed. I have failed NOT one, but TWO of my midterms. So depressing. Damn you, EE AND MATH!!

Not feeling too good. My throat is feeling kind of iffy. It's not a good time to be getting sick. I think I should be taking echinacea. You know what it is? It's this damn Berkeley weather!

"Love takes time to heal when you're hurting so much. I cannot stand the pain inside 'cause love takes time... I don't wanna be here alone." -Mariah Carey
Endlessly.

Desmond and his friends played mahjong tonight (last night... whatever). I haven't played mahjongg in forever! Damn me and my lack of Chinese friends who know how to play... I should consider bringing up my set from home and TEACHING everyone to play.

I've looked at the framework for my cs project a million times over. Why do I still feel so lost??

I got my DVDs! Yay! Now I have all of Hayao Miyazaki's movies (minus Spirited Away)! Hurrah! That's so exciting. =] I was watching PomPoko, which is a story about tanukis. Remember Mario 3 on old school Nintendo? Whenever Mario wore a tanuki suit, he could turn into a statue. KAWAII! =]

I finally got Christine's package for me last night. She sent it like two weeks ago! Damn postal service... But yes. I had dim sum today for the first time in forever! MMMM... dim sum. Went to El Torito at Jack London Square with my dormmates to celebrate Jon's birthday last night. Got lost trying to get there, but eh. That pretty much encapsulates my weekend. Damn. I'm pathetic, aren't I?

I just saw The Ring last night. It was SO scary. I'm still freaked out and I can't stop thinking about it. SO SCARY.

Finally finished with midterms... Well... at least for another couple of weeks. Sigh. It's never ending. I guess I really shouldn't be complaining because it's a whole lot better than working. I can't believe I know people who are graduating this year. Geez. That's so scary. I'm thinking back to sophomore year of high school (4 years ago!) and how they were all seniors right about now. I remember how desperately I wanted to be a part of Robert's clique. That seems like such a long time ago... and all those people... they're graduating!! And NOT from high school... from COLLEGE. That's scary as hell.

Birthday gifts received:
Desmond: homemade dinner, DKNY watch, external CD burner, Gucci cell phone decoration, Beauty & The Beast DVD
Holly & Brian: Britney's Dance Beat for PS2, cow socks
Li: scarf
Karishma: F.R.I.E.N.D.S. trivia game

Thanks, you guys! I'm so old now! I got up this morning and was like, "Ohh... my back hurts!" =]

I hate it when professors give you their old midterms to give you an idea of what it might be like and then give something so much harder for the real thing. Grrrr. How upsetting.

You think you know... but you have NO IDEA.

Any time a guy ventures to prove me wrong, I am only proven correct. So much for that, huh?

Do you think it's better to have your own separate life to go to when you're not with your significant other? I think so. I mean, sometimes, don't you just want something that's solely for you? Or is that selfish? I was watching an episode of FRIENDS and Rachel was telling Ross about how her job is for her and that she likes to keep that to herself. So I'm thinking that it's a good idea. I mean, there are places you like to go (or at least I have certain places) that you like to think of as your own. I suppose it's good to have certain things to yourself. It's just something that you can always have and be dependent upon, I suppose. Not that you can't be dependent on your significant other... but I guess it just feels good to be able to know you can stand alone sometimes, even if you don't have to.

Something stung me on the back of my head today. I'm so not amused. It hurts like a bitch, too. So I went to the University Health Center (aka Tang Center) and waited an hour an half for them to look at it for two seconds and say, "Yep. You were stung. But the stinger is gone and it's not really swollen, so just take some Tylenol and you'll be fine." Grrr.. Freakin' bugs that sting!!

Now I know what it's like to be a grader. Geez. People COMPLAIN! Goodness. But oh well. What can ya do?
So I had to go to 8am math discussion today because I thought there was a quiz. Was there a quiz? NO! That's so upsetting. I woke my ass up to go to that class only to find out that the quiz was moved to Thursday. And you KNOW that means I have to wake my ass up at 8am AGAIN on Thursday to take it. I don't know HOW I ever did 0 period in high school at 7am. What the heck was I thinking??

Had some Pasta Pomodoro today. I'm really, REALLY craving dim sum. Mmmmm... dim sum. But anyway. Wasted most of my day just napping. I should've been doing homework or reading or anything at all. But no. I slept. =] Oh well. My weekends pretty much consist of catching up on sleep I've lost in the past week. And that's the way things go for me. =] Ooh. Got a new Robert Downey, Jr. wallpaper today. He's so cute. =] Okay. That's about it.

Finished my CS project tonight. C is a pain in the butt with the manual allocation of memory and whatnot. PAIN! But yeah. This project was a million times easier than the ones in 61B (which I took over the summer) and it took SO much less time to finish. Thank goodness. I can't handle another 61B. =]

Went through some of my old OD entries. Wow. I was pathetic. It's funny looking back to the way I used to be. It actually does make me feel better. A lot of times, I'll wonder if I'm still the same person I was four years ago. Actually looking back, I realize that I have INDEED changed (for the better). A little bit of it still hurts, though. Looking back at high school and the way things were always does bring back some pretty low points. I think I've grown/matured a lot since then. I'd like to think my actions support that claim.