There's so much going on in my life. I don't know how I continue to stand. I feel like such a whiner, but at the same time, I feel like I'm entitled to feel the way I do because it's what I know. This is how I've lived my life and this is what I know. I can't help the way I am. Sigh. I don't want to deal anymore.

There's so much going on in my life. I don't know how I continue to stand. I feel like such a whiner, but at the same time, I feel like I'm entitled to feel the way I do because it's what I know. This is how I've lived my life and this is what I know. I can't help the way I am. Sigh. I don't want to deal anymore.

We were so close to getting the apartment. To have it right there and then to have it snatched away... I'm feeling so bleh.

We saw a BEAUTIFUL apartment today. It's a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment. It was SO nice and we really want it. I'm going to be so disappointed if we don't get it. So yeah. I'm really, REALLY hoping we get it.

Tammy's DONE with midterms! Perfect timing, too. Looks like I'm getting sick again. SIGH. We all know what happens when I get sick. It means I'm going to be sick for the next two months. What's WRONG with my immune system??

I've really come to terms with everything that's going on. There's really nothing I can do about it. The best thing I CAN do is to learn to be civil because one day, she WILL be the one to open the door and I'll have to be able to deal with it. I just know that I can't go on feeling this way forever. It'll drive me insane! I'm really going to try because I think it's worth it, but if I can't help but feel the way I feel... Well... I can't go on feeling this way forever.

I want everything to be okay. Take deep breaths. It's not always about how things must turn out perfectly because nothing ever does. It's such a bad expression to live by... but... hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

Strange how songs can bring about so many emotions you didn't know were there.

It's so hot up here! It feels like home! I want to hit the beach! =] I'm prancing around in my summer clothes! Hurrah! (I SHOULD be studying for midterms... sigh)

Deaths left and right. What's Berkeley doing to people? So someone jumped off the math building yesterday (it's like ten stories tall and the ugliest building on campus). A couple of weeks before, someone suffocated himself in that very same building. This isn't a good sign, is it?

Ever get depressed for no apparent reason? Cry just for the sake of crying? I think too much. Emotionally distraught. Cycle is off. Stress. Too much. Not enough. Mind blowing.