my take on it

I've really come to terms with everything that's going on. There's really nothing I can do about it. The best thing I CAN do is to learn to be civil because one day, she WILL be the one to open the door and I'll have to be able to deal with it. I just know that I can't go on feeling this way forever. It'll drive me insane! I'm really going to try because I think it's worth it, but if I can't help but feel the way I feel... Well... I can't go on feeling this way forever.