Finally finished with project 1 in my cs class. I was ready to die. Stupid spreadsheet.
But yeah. I've been pretty busy as of late. It's quite depressing. I don't have time to do anything else except program. This is what happens when I take such a hard class in summer school. Eh. Not much I can do about it now. Everyone else is dropping (or has already dropped) and I'm kind of upset because there's not going to be too many people for me to partner with on homework, projects, and whatnot. I'm not about to drop the class since I don't believe in quitting... so yeah.
I'm not too amused with the weather lately. Is it hot or is it cold? C'mon! I have class in the morning AND in the afternoon. I don't want to have to change clothes because it gets hot later. And then it gets all cold and I have to change back.
I know I'm being whiny... but it's my BLOG. So there.

So much for "DAILY DOSAGE." It's been awhile. It's been a strange week. I think everyone will start to feel better once it's over. I'm ready for a vacation.

Hurrah, hurrah! I'm going back to Berkeley tomorrow. Gonna go back to my apartment... gonna see my boyfriend... hurrah, hurrah! =] Went to UCSD with Kazu and Christine today. Kazu lived in a jail cell! His dorm looked like a jail! I guess I just imagined every dorm to look like mine and didn't realize they were so different. He had so much stuff! It was like a hurricane went through the room!

I got my hair cut today. I don't like it too much. I thought it would turn out better, but it didn't. Oh well. That was the extent of my day. I really need to get out of Torrance. All I do is sleep and eat. Oh. And let's not forget being yelled at by my parents every other second. I'd rather be studying.

I'm still bored. But Christine's coming back on Friday/Saturday! HURRAH! And then Stacey's getting here on Sunday/Monday! HURRAH! SO EXCITED!

So I'm back in Torrance. It's so boring. No one's out of school yet, so I'm just lazing the days away. I desperately miss Desmond since he's been gone in Hong Kong. There's really nothing to do.

I can't believe everyone is packing up to leave. It seems like just yesterday that we moved in. It's so incredibly sad to see the bare walls and empty rooms. I can't handle it. I look around this room and so much comes to me. A lot has happened in this past school year. I know it's just a room, a space enclosed by four walls, but it means so much more. This is where I spent the nights talking to my suitemates, getting to know them and getting to know myself. This is where we spent our time just hanging out, watching movies on our computers, watching TV, and just being college students. This is where I had "the talk" (the one that lasts all night and you get to know the person and connect with their souls) with Desmond. This is where Desmond and I got together... watching a movie on my computer, simply being college students. These four walls have witnessed a lot and it has so much to see for years to come. I'm almost jealous.

OH GOOD GOD! I have my CS final in 40 minutes and I still know NOTHING. I'm going to fail this final like I've never failed before! AACK!!! BREATHE...

I was watching J.Lo On Oprah today and she was talking about how she doesn't think people know when they meet THE ONE and that the relationship is IT. She claims to just live in the moment and do as she feels in the moment. Hmmm... don't think that relationship is going to last.

SIX MONTHS! =] It's been good because I've spent it with you.

So many things to do in the next two weeks! School is almost out!! YIKES!

It'll be six months next Tuesday. SIX MONTHS! It feels so much longer. It's amazing how I've come to love someone so deeply in such a short amount of time. It's especially amazing because he feels the same. Wow. I've waited and waited for this day to come and now that it's finally here, I know that it has been worth the wait. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I know you'll be there with me to find out.

Slowly starting to furnish.

"He must really like you. It's been six months and it's like this? You've got something AMAZING." I know. Believe me. I know.

There's so much going on in my life. I don't know how I continue to stand. I feel like such a whiner, but at the same time, I feel like I'm entitled to feel the way I do because it's what I know. This is how I've lived my life and this is what I know. I can't help the way I am. Sigh. I don't want to deal anymore.

There's so much going on in my life. I don't know how I continue to stand. I feel like such a whiner, but at the same time, I feel like I'm entitled to feel the way I do because it's what I know. This is how I've lived my life and this is what I know. I can't help the way I am. Sigh. I don't want to deal anymore.

We were so close to getting the apartment. To have it right there and then to have it snatched away... I'm feeling so bleh.

We saw a BEAUTIFUL apartment today. It's a 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment. It was SO nice and we really want it. I'm going to be so disappointed if we don't get it. So yeah. I'm really, REALLY hoping we get it.

Tammy's DONE with midterms! Perfect timing, too. Looks like I'm getting sick again. SIGH. We all know what happens when I get sick. It means I'm going to be sick for the next two months. What's WRONG with my immune system??

I've really come to terms with everything that's going on. There's really nothing I can do about it. The best thing I CAN do is to learn to be civil because one day, she WILL be the one to open the door and I'll have to be able to deal with it. I just know that I can't go on feeling this way forever. It'll drive me insane! I'm really going to try because I think it's worth it, but if I can't help but feel the way I feel... Well... I can't go on feeling this way forever.